This year i turn 18

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boring ye life ni !

apa la aku nak wat ngan hidup ni ?

alamak lupe plak

aku ada life baru !
seriously , i dont believe at all that i will be 18 this year  . dah boleh kahwin. mak ayah da ta bertanggungjawab dr segi undang2 .

yes , i do

i do , i do do do .

i do work as cashier in guadian .life always turns upside down when we having a difficulties with money ,

now , i realise searching for money is hard ,

before this i do know that searching for money is hard , but i dont feel it , i dont having the difficulties ,

i thaught somehow , leaving far away with family is hard when i was in boarding school , when we dont have enough money , no entertainment , not having any loving relationship and we only have friends who always help us to get trough all the hardship in ourlife .

but now , i do realise life become more and more hard when our age grow more numbers . haha . even i cant realise that i will turn 18 this year . as we al know in this age we will be having more and more happiness . ( zaman kegemilangan remaja) . but not me , i find it difficult to have entertainment for myself , now i thaught a lot how i can get a lot of money faster . aku nak duet la !

but then , i realise . i get less of love . i need love ! damn now! please !

but now , my heart feel like frozen to death ! thinking of the shit fucking money . it because i want to buy wallet from nose and shoes from vincci , slack from zara and ipad n blacberry phone . i become more greedy . who i am now ? i cant open my heart to anybody now . only my friends can make me laugh and smile . i thankful because i still have friends who always make me smile . Even now , zati and ara have resigned from their job . i still thankful to them because make my day at work happy as always . muah ! i know my life would be more boring after they were gone .

aku ta nafikan , bile ada izzati , aku ta payah nk walk sorang2 g keje . aku rse bahagia ble aku bly cubit n pukul die . tataw np . then , ble ara ade , rse cm kje tu fun n chill je . ye la , ade je laki yang ncem dtg kdai mata ktorang cm terbeliak , mle la wat aksi gedik2 die situ . gle kentang r . ta malu lgsg . ble dpt gedik gedikan disitu timbul rse ceria ye disitu . rse cam waktu keje tu biar la lme skt . tp lps die da tk de . aduuuiiih ! bosan lk . tp nsb baik la ada kak shai . fuh , kak shai ni lawak skt .

pernah hari tu an , sua kak shai ..... aku da ta benti nk tergelak . siap plan nk pin sua tu kai pin batch. sumpah lawak .

i know my life like cm boring .

suke ati life aku  la die nak wt pe pon ! 

 sptt ye , ble umur da 18 , aku skang tgh sbok having shopping with friends . ( tp nk shopping kai duet daun trun dari pokok ke ?)

aku sepatut ye tgh date ngan jejaka hati pujaan aku skang ( laki mn lak nk trun dri langit yang boleh wat aku ta tidu malam n ly wat jantung aku ni bergetar cam mesen tebu?)

aku sepatut ye skang ni sibuk lepak , men ice skating , tgk wayang , men bowling  n karaoke ngan membe ( aduuuih tak dk masa la , mak aku ta bg lak)

aku skang n sptt ye tgh sbok tweet , bbm , video chat or tgh menelaah gadget2 di zaman metropolitan yang cam bengo.. ni . (lantak pi la !)

next , aku py anak . peh , dorang sgt comel . i lov them so much . muah ! 

hr ni lak, aku cuti , aku pg jj bwak kete myvi mak aku . peh ! rse best gle dpt bwk kete  . lg best klo aku ad kete sendiri . lps ni aku ly a bwk adk aku g tusyen , g anta mak aku g kedai . berguna jgak la aku ni kan . ta dk la pandai nk melalak je kt uma an .

as for me , aku akan berusaha bersungguh sungguh  berkhidmat utk guardian . ok . wek !

haha , hope aku ly bertahan smpai aku dpt twaran pg mn2 universiti or matrik . aku berdoa kpd Allah utk berikan aku keputusan SPM yang cemerlang 9A + . amin , Ya Allah berikanlah , aku masa depan yg cerah supaya aku boleh membantu org yang susah . dan kau bantulah aku untuk , manghargai kasih syang yang diberikan oleh org yang aku ksihkan dan janganlah kau sesat kan aku dgn kebahagiaan yang sementara . amin .

-reported by doktor kamaliah-